Posts Tagged ‘thoughts’

My Sun

Thursday, September 15th, 2011

My name dances pulsing cadence in your words wake me from an inescapable nightmare and I swallow the whole universe with my morning stretch. You shine down on me beams of light brighter than Helios, and seer away the chill of night. I pull your rays around me unwilling to abandon this bed of warmth.

You, my sun.

Hours shift you anxious urging me ablaze into my day. Reluctant I lumber down the hall beckoning you like moths. Story the whole of everything grooved permanent in my hands, read me like a favorite book again and again. And watch spellbound my departure culling your return.

Open wide the window and summon sweet the chickadee’s song drift us intoxicated. Swoop in the crow to eat you whole and darkness rains upon me once again. The night terrorizes me silent frozen statue I will not move forgotten. Petrified dreams bronzed curls rise above my head spiraling crown and mimic you.

You, my sun.


Wednesday, September 14th, 2011

I am not good sharing my thoughts with others, not in a deeper sense. I tread lightly in this world as I know we have all suffered too much and I wish to cause no more, for others, for myself. I have spent far too much time staring at the past recently. It is not like me. I have never been a past dweller. I have always focused forward with hope filled eyes.

Have you ever stopped everything and just sat down refusing to move completely disregarding the inertia of things and people around you urging you desperately to move in some direction? I have done this in my life, in every single way, recently. I am all but holding my breath to not move in the slightest way just to avoid doing the wrong thing. I am paralyzed by a lack of will to move on, even if it is all that I am supposed to do, some act of willful defiance within refuses to allow me to budge. I spent far too much time picking my every emotional wound trying to goad myself onto a new path and I find my fingernails littered with bloodied thoughts of useless futility. I shall not move on, not today.

I’ve cried so many tears my eyes have evaporated and I no longer see who I am anymore. I can but make out a vague recollection of pieces of who I once was and I disappear into this unmovable version of me and grow thick an alabaster column cementing me to a statue of a memory.

The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox by Maggie O’Farrell

Thursday, July 31st, 2008

Click here to buy me uber cheap!Sometimes, I am shocked to see the prices of book. Some are way too expensive, hardly worth the almost $30 they charge for them. Some, though, are so inexpensive it is a shame. This is the case for this book, The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox  by Maggie O’Farrell. I went to today on the prowl for a new book to consume and saw this on the front page under specials or discounts or something. I clicked on it and it is on sale for $1.99!!!! OMG! That is insane! This is such an amazing book.

This book is wonderful! The characters are realistic, likeable and easy to relate and empathise with. The story is interesting and complex, touching upon societal ills while telling the story about one woman and her familial history. Iris, the opening character, is called to help a great aunt she didn’t know she had who was soon to be released from a mental institution. You are taken on a journey of exploration into the history of this family, how Esme (Euphemia) lived outside societal expectations and how society dealt with her in response. She dared to do as she pleased but at what cost? This is a timeless message, isn’t it? We all must choose what is important to us and there is always a price to pay. Together, Iris and Esme, learn how to be exactly who they want to be while getting to know one another. It is a story of the trials, errors and triumph of spirited women.

This book was engaging, thought provoking and simply a delight to read! I would recommend it to anyone! It is definitely well-worth the read. Incidentally, it also introduced me to an excellent author, Maggie O’Farrell. If you have not read anything by this author… STOP READING and GO! GO GET SOMETHING BY HER! She writes in a way that makes you yearn for more. =)