Creative Self-Loathing

I think too much. Lately, more than usual and for whatever reason my thoughts are not in my favor. I am so thankful to have such a magnanimous brain and endless creative imagination but some days all of the resources of both work against me. Here, listen to a nice song while you stick around and read.

Joshua James – Lovers Without Love

I wonder if “I am sorry” means anything after you continue to do the same thing over and over and over. I know for some, it doesn’t. For people like me, well I am infinitely forgiving and tolerant. I don’t know why. I just don’t like to hold grudges or stay upset. Mostly, I forget what I was upset about in the first place. This helps. Others can recall how you gave them a dirty look in the 2nd grade and remain angry till their grave. For what it is worth, I am sorry for being flaky, for being needy, for being a pain, for not being around, for anything…for everything.

Gah.

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4 Responses to “Creative Self-Loathing”

  1. Terence Says:

    What a sad but beautiful song.

    For what it’s worth, if there was any need I would forgive you right away too 🙂

  2. Me Says:

    Thanks, Terence! I hope all is well with the family! =)

  3. Terence Says:

    Nathaniel is going through a little bit of a rough time. He wants to run and play, but his asthma doesn’t really let him do that as much as he wants to and he doesn’t quite understand why. I am hoping that he grows out of the worst of his asthma as he gets older. Other than that, everything is going very well.

    How are you and your girlies doing?

  4. Me Says:

    Awww poor little fella. =/ I hope he can get the asthma under control soon so he can run and play as he wishes. Does he see someone for it?

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