Archive for the ‘feelings’ Category

In case you forget…

Friday, October 28th, 2011

We spend so much time being hard on ourselves, hating who we are or disliking parts of ourselves. Comparing ourselves to others we will always fall short of something, somewhere, some time. I say… forget that… pretty, pretty please…

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss ‘No way, it’s all good’, it didn’t slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I’m still around

Pretty pretty please,
Don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than,
Less than perfect
Pretty pretty please,
If you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing
You’r are perfect to me!

You’re so mean,
When you talk about yourself,
You were wrong!
Change the voices in your head,
Make them like you, instead!
So complicated, look happy, you’ll make it!
Filled with so much hatred…such a tired game
It’s enough! I’ve done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I’ve seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please,
Don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than,
Less than perfect
Pretty pretty please,
If you ever ever feel like you’re nothing
You are perfect to me.

The whole world’s scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they’re everywhere
They don’t like my jeans, they don’t get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than,
Less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing, you are perfect to me
You’re perfect, you’re perfect to me!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing
You are perfect to me…

Bound

Friday, March 18th, 2011

Bound.jpg

We are all of us bound to something, some one… many things. No matter how far away, we still feel the never ending pull. We try to mask it with white noise, with others, with go, go, go but still there is no severing some ties. We are bound to those we shared a little too much of ourselves with even if we try to pretend otherwise. We are bound to ourselves, even the darkest meanest self-critic within. We are bound to our pasts like rotting roots waiting to crawl through us and petrify all that is good, all we have overcome. We are bound to our sadness, to our will, to our weakened or refreshed strength. We are bound to the strangers around us. We are bound to the person starving or crying or celebrating millions of miles away, the one we may never meet. We are bound to the buildings with the paint chipping off and the glass towers built to last forever. We are bound to the oiled birds of the Gulf Coast. We are bound to the missing in Japan. We are bound to the fabric woven throughout humanity to all its imperfections and to all its beauty. We are bound to everything, and I am bound to you.

Bound to you by Christina Aguilera (from the Burlesque Soundtrack)

Truth and emotions

Thursday, January 13th, 2011

Parasite, originally uploaded by bijoyKetan.

“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth.”
– Benjamin Disraeli

I read that quote and its meaning has been resonating within since. I am always apologizing for ‘getting upset’, for crying, for being mad, for being afraid, for everything really. I can think of a dozen or so times in the past month I apologized for showing emotion. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

We have alienated ourselves in the age of social networking. Instead of closer, we are farther apart. It is sad but true. Part of this culture is to anesthetize ourselves, our emotions. Mute them down, paint over them, pretend as if we are aloof. Grow so busy we can’t help but be apathetic to that which matters: people, love, connections, family, relationships.

I am going to try not to apologize for my emotions, my feelings, for 30 days. If you catch me do it, remind me! =)