Archive for November, 2010

Dear Santa, I’d love…

Tuesday, November 30th, 2010

Dear Santa, I’d love…, originally uploaded by dr_loplop.

As part of my operation nice assignments…I am writing a letter to Santa to tell him what I want for Christmas. So, Ole St. Nick, here is my list…

This year, I’d love…

1. Confidence. I seem to have misplaced mine in the past few years and I can’t seem to find it.

2. Good health. For my family, friends and myself. I have been sick for a few years and it really drains my motivation and my good spirits.

3. Productivity. I’d love to be more productive, to work on my sites a bit more, to finish up some projects I’ve started but haven’t finished. To start writing more, maybe even for money.

4. Discipline. I’d love to have the discipline to exercise on a regular basis, this may help me feel better physically as well. I’d also love to journal on a regular basis again. I used to be so good at it! And daily meditation. Seems, Santa, that discipline is something I really, really need.

5. Clarity. In what I want to do, in which direction I want to go, in my overall purpose, in my life’s goals. I have been struggling and I believe everything happens for a reason, even if it is not a good one. While I have been slowed down by my health, I feel like it gave me some time to re-evaluate my purpose, my goals. I’d love the clarity to do this.

6. A good experience for my girlie in her first year of college. I want her to enjoy every aspect of it through the difficult and jubilant times. I hope she discovers that she is capable of anything she puts her mind to and that she is worth love, great big gigantic deep love. She is so worth it. And I really want her to feel that for herself as well.

7. A pay raise for my friends. I want all my friends to get raises, bonuses, level increases, grants. Anything they need and deserve. =) And a sense of appreciation at work. I know many a person who works very hard and feels unappreciated…Santa, please bring them a better working experience.

8. A way back to Grad School. I would love to find a way to go back to Graduate school, to pinpoint what I want to study and to go for it.

9. Intimacy, Relationship deposits. Santa, help me pick up the phone more often to say hello, to invite a long-distance friend to a chat or a local friend to lunch. Let me invite others to dinner or a movie. Remind me how to show those I care about how important they are in my life by making time for them.

10. Gratitude. I want to stay focused on all that I have in my life. To be actively, proactively grateful for the people and comforts I enjoy every single day of my life.

Thank you, Santa. I’ll try to help you out… and do what I can on this end. =) I would love, love, love to help you out in helping fulfill someone else’s list too. =) Let me know if I can.

P.S. Since I am receiving Photoshop for my birthday, you can definitely take that off the long-long-long-wanted list as well. =) WOO HOOO!!!

How do you feel today?

Monday, November 29th, 2010

how do you feel today? #explore, originally uploaded by Thiago SL.

Moods come and go and mix and match every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month and year… and I can appreciate each and every one of them. Life is not cut and dry, it is not concrete. Nothing is constant except change.

We often forget or refuse to acknowledge and respect the feelings we are having. We push them aside, we swallow them, we hide them, we pretend they do not exist. But what if we were to set aside 5 or 10 minutes a day to acknowledge our feelings, feelings we had throughout the day that we could not, or would not allow ourselves to feel. What if we carried around a little notebook and wrote them down and looked at them at some point for 5 to 10 minutes a day? In writing, aloud, in our own minds.

Right now, I feel grateful. I feel reticent. A little sad. More grateful. And I am thankful for every feeling, juxtaposed, awkward, uncomfortable or jubilant. I am thankful I have a very wide, extremely complex range of emotions to cope with life. =)

So, how do you feel today?

Thanks Tree

Thursday, November 25th, 2010

Thanks Tree, originally uploaded by prospurring (Anne).

I am thankful for so much today. Let me list a few of the things…

Friends. Family. Love. A roof over my head. Warm clothes. Electricity. Good food. Red. Books. Reading. Time to steal away to read. Smiling. Hugs. Birds. The hummingbabies and chickadees, crows and puffins. The ability to be grateful, especially for the small things.

I am thankful for you.

Happy, happy, happy, happppppppyyyy Thanksgiving.

a little girl made a great big wish

Monday, November 22nd, 2010

I remember as a child reading some piece of advice that stuck with me.

“Decide what you like in others, what kind of characteristics or qualities you find admirable or worthy, and then become the person you want to be accordingly.”

I made a list, a simple list back then, and decided I would do just that. Many of the things on the list I already was inherently. But some I had to work at. I did. I do. And I continue to revisit this list throughout my life and compare it to who I am at the time. It has become my own measuring stick of success.

I equate success with intangible things like being most of the things on my list, or positively affecting another person’s life. I measure success in quality of love and of laughter and listening. And I think this helps put things in perspective for me. It is only when I start to look to other measuring sticks to gauge my own success that I struggle with distorted self-images.

And I have to admit, that has been my problem for awhile. I have been trying to measure myself against a different standard, a standard I can never reach. So, I am revisiting the list and the girl I once was…who was so very intelligent and wonderful so many years ago, the girl who started the list. And I am going to ask…

What does she think about it all today?

And it is my guess she would still choose love and laughter and listening over dollars and promotions and constant new professional goals. She would choose people over things. She would choose living over accumulating. She would choose a good book over a movie or a TV program any day, any time. She would spend less time focused on all that she had done wrong and more time on what she can do right.

And so should I. So should I!

Nighttime for me

Friday, November 19th, 2010

Persimmon. A nite tale., originally uploaded by BeboFlickr.

This picture caught my eye. It looks magical. What an evening site! I have always had a preference for the night time. The quiet of the night, the calm.

I am a night owl.

It’s Time…

Thursday, November 18th, 2010

It is time to say hello to that friend you haven’t called in far too long.
It is time to say you are sorry.
It is time to say you love them.
It is time to laugh at a silly joke.
It is time to forgive.
It is time to write that letter you have been meaning to write.
It is time to surprise someone.
It is time to hug someone.
It is time to start that new job, to exercise, to knit, to do whatever it is you have been putting off.
It is time. It is always time. Do it now!

Let’s be the people we want to like…

Wednesday, November 17th, 2010

Everlasting Love

There is a common thread of dislike of other people pervasive in our world today. People hating people. People losing patience with people. People being rude and disrespectful. People lacking people skills. So much aggression, so much to dislike. And it feels almost hopeless… as if we are inextricably bound to this thread, even if we want to like people… even if we want to ‘be nice’ and shine light and not spew hatred or anger. But, it is not hopeless… or at least not for me. Or for you. =)

Let’s bet the people we want to like. Let’s hold doors open for people and share our umbrellas in the rain. Let’s return lost items and let’s say thanks whenever we get the opportunity. Let’s fill out comment cards and praise the good in people. Let’s look for things to like and let’s emulate them. Let’s go the extra mile to help someone, particularly if they ask. Let’s encourage others whenever we can. Let’s smile more. Look into the eye of the person in front of us. Let’s call our family and friends—ask how they are doing… and really listen to their response. Let’s write note cards. Let’s pay for the person behind us. Let’s reserve judgment. Let’s make positive assumptions rather than negative. Let’s approach someone first. Say hello. Say hello again next time. Bring an extra sandwich for lunch. Let’s be polite and patient.

Let’s be the people we want to like…

A message worth reading…

Tuesday, November 16th, 2010

Who doesn’t need this reminder on a regular basis?

Not in this home…

Monday, November 15th, 2010

all surrounded, originally uploaded by Robb North.

We all have a home within us, one we have built growing up, one we add to, demolish, rebuild throughout our lives. This is where we retreat when we get our hearts broken from lovers gone away, from friends who no longer take our calls, from opportunities missed and tragedies at our doorstep. This is where we reflect upon the day, the hour, the moment, a lifetime… and this is where we nourish ourselves. We learn to love or hate ourselves within these walls.

Throughout our lives we invite people in to our inner homes and this can be infinitely rewarding or painful depending on who we choose to let in and how we choose to let them behave within our most secret rooms.

Can they traipse about tearing down walls and pictures and breaking glass along the way? How long before the wind howls in and chills us to our core. Can they come with peace and love and help us decorate or refinish or restore? Can they help make renovations that make life just a little bit easier? Can they make additions for things we never conceived possible?

What do those in your life do when they come to visit within?

Fall too slow…

Sunday, November 14th, 2010

First Snow, originally uploaded by Terra Kate.

I heard a beautiful song on a commercial and had to find out what it was… I did… “Fall too slow” by Andra. She is a singer from South Africa. You can hear the song below or read more about her here and here.

Fall Too Slow by Andra